Its so hard for me to decide what emotions I am going with when I think of the situation between one of my friends and I. See here's the story all broken down for you... Labels: friendship
I used to live around my hometown.. && worked @ a local business. That's where I met "him". We dated for a year then he strung me along for 2 more... The whole time we worked at the same place so it was hard not to see one another. In that time I met a girl who became my friend.. At first I didn't like her.. she was loud & very immature but "he" knew her bf so it just seemed appropriate to become friends. Well one day I got fired for the stupidest reasons known to man... The real reason was because the "boss" was being forced to step down so they did a little house cleaning for revenge.. I wasn't the only one who got the boot.
Well we all started to hang out together & laugh.. have some good times but "he" didn't like her at all... She had this mutual friend whomever everyone at work thought was gay. Weirdly enough she introduced this boy to "him" & they started hanging out. Things between "him" & I got strained. I felt like he was lying to me.. I just had a bad feeling & my bad feelings are always right.
Anywho when I got fired a couple days after that he didn't want to talk to me any longer. I moved away but later found out it was because he was gay and started dating the boy my friend had introduced to him... Figure that shit huh...
Thats not the reason I'm writing though. The reason is after I moved back to that town and realized I hated it there beyond words.. I moved away again.. a tiny bit closer than last time.. more like 45 mins away and not 2 hours.
Sidenote: After all that shit happened with "him" she and I got closer. We hung out all the time.. had lots of laughs and memories pretty much were best friends...
Well after I moved the second time I realized after a couple months that this was where I wanted to be.. I met some ppl.. & felt great. I knew I didn't want to go back near that town ever again. I hated it for al the momories and lies it held. I thought to myself everytime I went back to visit that this wasn't my town anymore. I felt like a stranger & I could not have that feeling inside me so I vowed to never go back there (which is semi-hard because I have to go through that town to get to my Parents). We started to grow apart & she started to hang out with "homo" boy. I felt betrayed. Here this girl is who saw all the shit I had to go through because of this boy & she's hanging out with him.. being friends.
I told her how I felt about it all. I got angry & you want to know what she said to me... She told me she has to get along with "him" because they work together. Wow. Really now? I was thinking since she wanted to be my best friend and all she would realize becming friends with "him" would really ruin that chance.
So now I am torn between loving her for being there beside me through most of my hardships dealing with what he did to me & hating her for being two-faced & deceiving me. I think I have every right to be feeling this way.. The hating her tends to over-ride the loving at this point. Its been a week since I have seen her and she has not made any attempt to try to call or txt me. I am not the type of person that will wait around for anyone.. I am so good at cutting people out of my life that I am strongly thinking about doing it to her also.
So I just want to know what you would do in a case like this????
